Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Well, I still don't understand why I have to feel like this and why does everything has to turned out to be like this. This isn't how it's supposed to be. If you only know how does it feel like to be ignored and left out...when nobody even cares about you. They don't even bother to see your name or even say hi. Do you know how much it hurts me deep inside? Do you know how painful it is? No one is even listening to what I am saying, not even a word, baby. They know that today was supposed to be a great day for me, but everything just didn't go right, as planned. I have to spend every single day alone, without anyone by my side. Everyone is just too busy with themselves. What can I do? No one ever cares about me. No at all. Even my friends, family, everyone! Ugh, waitaminute, FRIENDS? Did I just say friends? OOOPSSSS, Sorry, I don't have friends, remember? Alright, alright, I do have some so-called 'FRIENDS'. Yeah, whatever shit. Ha! Friends are just shit! They cling on you only when they need you, when they don't, they ditch you and step you like some kind of dirt. Fuck'em all. You won't believe me I know, well yeah, that's only because you haven't feel it YET. But one day, my dear, the truth will come to light, well, one thing you should know, TRUTH ALWAYS HURTS. Got it? Does truth make you cry? Oh yes, it does. I'm not being sarcastic or anything, I am just stating the truth, see, I told ya, truth hurts. And, anyways, do you wanna know why I hate my so-called 'friends'? Because they hate me too, they ignored me and they don't even care about me. Only on that day that they acted so nice towards me. Well, hey, it was my birthday, they should be nice towards me. Why? Because I am still on their friend list. And they were just pretending to be nice, what a fake, I knew. I bet they don't even know that I'll be back this saturday, even though I told'em. HA HA. I can't stop laughing at how stupid and naive I was. How did I even believe them? And all my stupid assumption? STUPID. Trust me to believe such things. So, I think I have had enough. Bye~ my friend~ Well, you and 'Pierre' are the only friends that I have, I mean it. You are not listening, I know.
I've done my Olevel, so what's next? I don't know what the hell is wrong with me, but I kinda pissed off by them! I hate planning! Things never go as what I had planned! HATE THIS! I HATE MY FRIENDS! EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM!!!! Why must this happen to me? Why can't they understand? I don't need you all! I'm better off without you guys, leave me alone! I know you already have. I don't wanna know anything anymore! I HATE YOU GUYS! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU!!
I HATE
ALL MY
FRIENDS!!!!
SO,
GET THE FUCK
OUTTA
MY LIFE!!!